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Here, come the day of the preliminary round of dis youth leadership challenge 2009=D sam tet school send off two teams-SAM TET A & B to participate in dis competition.

wee~ my team turned out as d leading team in d first round! d talk on leadership by miss wong lay lay is especially uplifting.It had been years since i last attending d youth leadership award 2007 in sunway university college. but i bet dis is veri muc better den d previous one i attend.we need injection and reflection constantly to remind us d easily forgotten LQ: the leadership quotient..

dis is the formulae.

Leadership quotient=Intelligence quotient,emotional Q,Passion Q,Positive Q, Spiritual Q,Social Q, Communication Q,global Q, and ethical Quotient.when i ponder over the egg incidents happened today, the emotional turmoil boil within myself.I am at the stake of losting myself out, the conscious inner me!

at d beginning of d activity,each mmbr is given an egg to take k off and each egg counts one point.and of coz d fragile egg is too easy to be broken..but if v gt extra egg,v wil b given xtra marks…den cum to dis stealing eggs incident..at dat spark of moment, the temptation was so strong,everyone wanna win the games, blinded by the triumph, the ethicals were pushed sideway..

b4 dis,my group 11 got d 1st in the 1st round, den one of d team mmbr n me approach the facillitator n ask if v cn picked up any fall off eggs in d field..(the other teams r stil too engrossed completing d given tasks…).she didn’t answer me, she smile at me dis time.after the 2nd round,sam tet team emerged as d 1st, which finally make us as d leading team in today premilinary round. den d facilitator came 2 me n pat my shoulder…she asked if i steal any eggs .. i averted her gaze,said i remember the Et Q.

yes,most of the time,it appears to us dat d temptation is too strong to resist..be it ethical or not, its veri muc depends on us to judge..no one can answer you wat u r doing is right, u tell yourself wat r the right things to do. I m grateful that i did not fall into the swirl of temptation. i m grateful its juz an egg but not an ordinary egg. the egg teaches me how to pave my path for the rest of my life. I am grateful and regret of what i have done(even its juz a ridiculous thought, a piece of mind, the thought is enough to  engulf our ethic)

p/s: looking for my missing purse,IC,atm cards,cough medicine .. lost so many items dis wiks..huu~ nvm,i m physically n mentally strong! don get frustrated..i m calling u guys,faster bac 2 me..aiks,my unpaid tuition fee..mr ang~~

will be leaving here until stpm is over wen i bac to kl..v bid farewel here,hahhahaa,my aunt stop d internet service nex month onward..hmmm

add on: my hp spoilt during 2day activity, drowned in the egg liquid..hehex,reach me by my hse fon yah,tata..wil miz u guys..!=)

the second day of school, miss tan lecture us but it was an inspiring one.she started off by asking hw we feel for the second day of school..haha,for me, the uncertainty+hectic+ abitbit fearful and of coz being abit (actuali very) excited to meet frens..mixed feelings huh…

here the lecture from my PA teacher,Miss Tan:

wat you wanna achieve in yr life,at least during dis one and half year of sixth form life..to grow stronger?to be perseverance or to be more passionate? not oni wil it leads to yr stpm due the end of dis year but it is a life-long learning,even now,i m stil learning..trying to better a better person everyday.

let me ask you dis, wat will you do to blow a balloon big?

not merely blowing in air,but to blow a ballon big, we have to stretch it, so dat the balloon be more Flexible and to be able to be blown big.

dis year it might be excruciating for your all,with tonne of homeworks,test after school hour,coco activities..these are wat i meant-the stretching!

stretching might be pain,v might feel uncomfortable or uneasy in the process

sumtimes feel like giving it up and to end it all, but the heart of matter here is dat,

Are you willing?

are you willing to undertake the stretched to soar for greater height?

________long lecture,rite,she talked for two periods..i don rmbr exactly wat she hav said actuali, juz a rough translate here, but..

yah,i noe it wil be painful, i might juz as wel break down wen it goes beyond my breaking point..but its reali perfectly okay to cry wen you feel like crying or wen you get stressed up,you might feel it dat way but believe me its reali okay, after every crying,u might as wel feel yrself strenghten. yah, hold on til the veri end.after all, its actuali not too far from nw..but 1st of all,get yrself on track 1st.pn chee said its d hardwork n attitude dat pay off, oso,yah, do not procrastinate and not juz oways sleep, ha,dat day i happened to scan tru dis line:贪：不贪心，不贪名利，不贪吃，不贪睡!hahaahahahahah, now oni i realize dat i am a greedy person,贪吃和贪睡,the extreme one hahahahahahaha, stop sticking myself on the bed every morning..lolx =b, stop eating in claz..stoping staying up late 2 study n 2 eat maggie mee late at night……….以后不准，不准，不准哦！！！hahaha

stil the words: gambateh!aza aza!加油！！！！

now i hav picked up the hobby of writing diary, i hav it stuffed underneathe my bed, a small and managable one..wen i gt discouraged n depressed,hope dat it will strengthen me by reading bac the words i have written thr, reminding me the persistence n perseverance i once hav had, to keep going no matter hw tough the going is n to hold on til the veri end..

p/s:to all the sixth former, jia you! =) ha,start drilling nw! stay hapi everyday for its the force dat drive us tru every single day..smile! every single day! (o=^^=o)

wow,back in kl for chinese new year. A place called home-for me! Supposedly, i should have stayed with my aunt during dis CNY(so very reluctant,ha!ha!) but i persist to be back in kl. The bus was late for nearly three hours. yer… the maraliner bus, got stucked in the heavy traffic flow.. but yah, wen d bus was finally arrived at the bus terminal, half the passengers were gone. but u noe,its reali syok to own a double seats wen u juz pay for a single seat,u cn roll,roll again,den sleep over,do wateva thgs dat u like..ridiculous ha! I never noe i so wanted to go back home,regardless the long-hour waiting,juzlike chi eng n big hau..the two of dem probably staying wit their family nw..aha!=) dis year brot bac home a whole luggage of buks n homework,not a single clothings 2 be wore,of coz my mum did nagged at me =.=

last year CNY was after spm,back to pahang kemayan,my papa hometown..dis year as wel, my gor gor drove us bac,wit his “initial D” crazy speeding (就只欠飘移)+ deafening Initial D songs all the way out ,..hey!i swear i never wanna sit inside his car anymor!

abt d reunion dinner,no commentary on dat..2b able to eat maggie mee is considered a blessing 4 me, at least, do not hav 2 eat grass=b..

d drizzle juz fade away in time 4 d firework display. but dis year firework display is nt as splendid as last year, not splendid enough for me 2 shout like mad. oso not the starry night sky 4me 2stay up late 2 gaze at anymor..dis year my uncle gave us(me n my sis) a 孔明灯,aha, den v start scribbling wishes on it,snatching marker pens frm each other,yet nt enough for us,too many wishes to make,to many thgs 2 write,n v omost topple d 孔明灯，torn it into pieces..wee~ganasnya..!kekex!!!!!

bac in kl, d top on my to-do-list:bookstore! d bookstores in ipoh aint wel-stocked but undeniably better arranged n categorised den dat in kl.

1st day,i got it done wit midvalley mph n jusco popular! say yeah!yeah!yeah!(=^^=)

2ml wil b heading to timesquare wit sis to equip her anime collection..meanwhile indulging myself in “border”..

another great bookstore here,wee wee~ but i luv d scent in kinokuniya,sin mun n me, v both define it as 书香… sumhw v juz able to scent it,dif scent frm dif bookstores..d unique n veri personal one..ha!being too far-fetched here!

hav u read “twilight”? wee~wee~ i brot the buk 4 one year,2b exact,last year during bukfest,twilight n new moon(20% discunt! wa!)..juz dat i nvr bother to finish it..den i picked up the buk again during dis CNY, cum to chapter three,d storyline take a great twist,..wuwuwuwuwuwu,cnt stop rivetting my eyes off d buk…i mean,now!right now! i tell myself nvm,ha,so,finish it off,den oni continue wit my coordinate geometry..deal!

hapi chinese new year yah^^ grateful to everything, thanks for everything. another 2 more days to stay in kl, i m so homesick!

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最近好像一合上眼,就睡着了 (而且还是不省人事的那一种) 虽然只是那区区的几分钟, 但感觉真的好幸福哦. teng看见身边的朋友假期都各为各的节目而忙:坏孩孑赶稿,崇怛搞饥饿三十的东东,”泰国”说他晚上不睡觉-打机(今早上课,头发都是乱乱的=.=”"),佳敏,chi eng和衰miao去了槟城的inti camp……又看看自己,在这个假期,好傢荒废了学业…

=(

xx天前,师兄致电请teng回佛学会帮忙做义工, teng最终答应了..

不知道为什么..心情总是灰灰的…好像要下雨了…不知道自己在搞什么..只觉得

心 力 佼 瘁

放假到现在都很忙,都很用功读书,一上完课便背着书包走路去state library读书..那几天病倒了,放纵自己休息,不读书(烂..) 但最近都超忙的.. organic chem 考试前到现在还是还没搞懂(智慧不够?-_-?)

到今天为止,假期都快结束了,感觉每一天都虛度了,说好了玩乐的时候玩乐,读书的时候就得读书…为什么时常都会混杂在一起.啊!定慧不够,现在赶快去磨…..

要磨般若,还有还有要磨

‘精进’ 哈=),什么是精进呢?

精是专精，进是进步。能做到专精不怠懈，这叫‘精进’。而进步是好的，最重要的是要精进。因为”专精”是纯而不杂。

这个teng也要先搞懂^^

其实假期,teng会更忙,但是放假teng终于可以回家luu~

17-19/11

teng随着辅导学会所举办的三天两夜激励营到sungkai hotspring接受特训!…^^teng被分派到与小坏蛋同一组哦!其他组员还有大大佬的弟弟,还有还有..督导是朱义伟,teng同月同日生日的PRS,同是佛学会会员!=D p/s:原来huah wei也是辅导学会会员(@@)

tiong heng的无敌组还唱起山歌来..嘿eii~嘿eii!=)唱得超搞笑的

一行40人,浩浩荡荡地出发,前往hotspring..途中大家还不忘了观看teng从姨丈手中借来的DVD-tan`ya chew,lim ding zhui~~~

chi eng还带了他的老婆(姐姐的老公)教teng弹吉他呢!

sungkai hotspring,teng没去过(上次去野餐时,只是瞄了一下路牌),但siti老师说这次的激励营地点是在NS campsite..

到了sungkai NS campsite,commander说明天会有个长达25km的jungle trekking,我当场就”哇”了很多下,上次Ipoh International Run,teng都被10km的长跑给吓坏了,yiiiiiiii(~.~)怕!

up ceiling-孩子紧张得胃痛,她,畏高,哈!哈!up ceiling,看戏都是一跳一顿的,teng还吵着要第一个跳上去呢!instructor超有耐心的教….

instructor:adik,apa nama kamu?

teng:ah teng

instructor:ah teng,sekarang,saya nak tanya satu kali lagi,dah fikir betul-betul nak buat ni(up ceiling)keh?

teng:umm!

instructor:tak takut?

teng:=) sikit, tapi saya nak cuba!(instructor笑了=)oo..^^

instructor:cari tempat untuk pijak kayu,….kakak kaki

teng:aha?apa kakak kaki…?.?

…但紧跟在teng身后的坏蛋说,instructor赞teng做得很好(o=^^=o)ngek ngek!!!

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flying fox更加赞,teng还没准备好,instructor就把我给推出去了,=”(..坏蛋说有三层楼高(又骗我了!明明就是四层楼)

kong chee meng更加搞蛋,就..一边飞…一边以港姐式的姿态向我们招手(o=^^=o)

flying fox后,teng需紧握着麻绳越过急流,回到flying fox的起点.但,instructor忘了替teng和evanz扣上安全带,河水就一直冲..

提起冲击力,teng都像觉得自己好像是在被车撞,而且还是被撞了又撞..ha!ha!=P..

teng突然想起临去camp前一晚,妈致电说不准teng去camp时靠近河..哈….

就在这时,evans,太极组副主席超勇的,领着teng一路杀出去..huu~没事了!

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night trekking-我们”深入”森林,commander说要让我们坐在森林中长达3小时,感受大自然.还说凌晨3点再继续出发.teng感受了大自然5分钟,就与坐在身旁的chan yi jia聊了起来,hehex!chan yi jia form 3 representative..teng超喜欢他的..=),和善,可爱,单纯,和teng一样贪玩..在森林里,还让teng瞧见了萤火虫(wa!原来萤火虫发出的光不是橙色,而是绿色的)..坏孩子听了,是这个表情的—>(~.~)”"!!

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teng晚上不睡觉,观星哦!

ha!其实是与坏蛋约好了night trekking后,要一起偷吃夜宵,泡面吃,怎知沸水晚上10点后停止供应!..teng从帐蓬里抱了sleeping bag,铺在空地上观星…坏蛋还开了他蔬菜口味的杯面,我们一起干啃..

薇开了周杰伦的”星晴”,还有yoke yee,pui yee,liew chee lun,大大佬和坏孩子,嘿,都觉得自已超幸福的,能和大家在一起:)

如果每一颗星星代表着一个愿望,teng希望坏孩子和小坏蛋能开心.

当然,晚上不睡觉,看星星,可是要挨骂的oh~

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yeah,到了第三天,终于可以去hotspring luu~~~但那以前是”treasure hunt”,所谓的treasure hunt,是跟着指南针所指的方向前往终点,hehe,就像是station games..:)但绝对没有treasure可言,因为每到一个station,不是gerai,就是电灯柱,要不然就是垃圾桶,teng觉得很冷( -_-”)!

yoh,终于到hotspring了,原来终点是hotspring!form 4 那班prs超疯狂的,一直把人往水里”抛”,大大佬就被抛了3次,2次是代liew chee lun和pui yee..he!he!

wee~ wee~!!!!teng记得有位”同学”从滑水梯滑下来后,裤子就掉了下来,被teng看见了!他每滑2次,就会掉一次,每次都给teng瞧见了!大家就这样笑翻了天(=^^=)还有还有更变态不堪的事,哈!不提了=b
从泳池到热水湖,再到温泉井,又回到泳池..就一直冷热交替..siti里面的babie都快被蒸熟了luu~zuraimi和hartinawati老师还和我们一起玩水ohh~他都不知道我们是故意把水一直向他泼!ha!

回去时,teng还震震有词,提议明年顺便去sunway university college上course,又很顺便地去sunway lagoon…不管了,就这样决定好了!=)

p/s:kem motivasi的委员,辛苦了! 衰miao vincent 说他三天只睡了不到10小时..

20-23/11

食物中毒ing…去kem时,吃了一条长得很像羊角豆的靑辣椒..(我怎么都吃不出?.?)迟顿+笨笨的teng…

24-28/11

..学校补课!Maths老师所给的questions超有深度的!teng喜欢maths,喜欢在纸上算草,而且是要用铅笔的,沙`沙`沙`的,才有快感…但,好累o.还有3个星期~每天8点放我在学校=(gavin还是7点就到校了!wa!)iiii,teng那天才扮physics生偷偷溜进了lecture hall上Mr. Kong的physics claz.teng超专心的听课:).大大佬还跟別人打赌一千万不是teng!:b

12月学校图书馆要装修了!不能再躲在图书馆读书了….阿牛,听好,在图书馆读书没有副作用,teng这就发射一点正能量给你..!

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平时都为学业与学会的东东而忙,假期千万要努力哦,知道吗!!

oosshh!加油!努力!认真!

原来，自己还是不够努力

但，

不是说好了，考试前要超努力读书嘛，考完试后不准再去想

是啊，就..考完试后不去想，

但也不能考得太差! 因为，我还是会很伤心的…

哈，每次这个时候，又再次想起几米所说的，

漠然的沮丧，走在街上，有种想要落泪的冲动…..

但婷当然没那么不冷静

牛车轮说 v aim for stpm，哈!婷都觉得他超乐观的…..

春怡的名句更经典，考试是靠运气，这次只是”Exercise”罢了

最近都是那种淡淡的感觉，不是忧郁，但，就…出奇的平静….婷有反思噢! =)

嗨, 没关系! 不准哭!

今天好想偷懒不读书噢…..哈哈哈，最近都窝在图书馆….好久没下食堂吃东西，咏婷都不知我每天都在班上偷吃，气死她，kekex!! =P

Gavin，谢谢你噢，今天在图书馆，你的那一句“秀婷~ 又读书啊=) ”超温柔的，让婷有继续努力的坚持….谢谢你，要一起好好加油噢。。.还有， 小坏蛋，婷超感激你的，每次都让婷开心地笑…要开心开心开心!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ^^

Form 4 PRS, 大家辛苦了! 十一月的激励营， 婷超期待的!

婷其实绝对不是不认真的副主席，但一直以来，笑容都太灿烂了，再加上与生俱来的贪玩，才会让人误会。(我也很不想啊)  还是希望大家能好好认识与了解!  chi eng 没填form, 罚你坐车顶=)

”最近都觉得自己做错了很多事情，讲错了很多 话，teng只想从心出发-讓心回到原點。 。。“

其实teng很少写部落格，除非很不开心，所以一写就一定无法收拾，这几天发生了许多事，同同事件是导火线? 我不知道。秘密，是非越揭越多，jiejie,gorgor们，不要再说了，teng不想听，teng都没眼睛去看了，因为真的很丑，很丑。。坏蛋今天都很不开心，孩子哭了。teng不想再说了，不想一时冲动说出来的气话会伤害到任何人。teng以前都没试过那么的不冷静，情绪压抑了很久，都不敢乱乱地发脾气，所以最近在学校都是扮得超酷的。。哈!有吗??(=^^=)

认识了tiong heng，感觉好多了，teng决定要学乖，跟tiong heng学，明天去佛学会好好地学习。。回到原点，从心出发

最近都很忙，都没时间读书，睡觉，今天抄考试时间表时，有点怕怕的，很惭愧。。。organic chemistry 还没搞懂………

recentli being veri restless……….lei huai ler,reali lei huai ler

browse tru my previous blogs,kind of feelings aroused,nvr realize dat i hav started to write blog since 2006,its is nw 2008.total post achieved:37!yeah!..so many things happened within dis three years,dramatic n unpredictable,siew teng has grown stronger,nvr cry or complain nor hav grudges nor grievance nw,yah,kip to dat,k!hope d words written here wil at least retain d memories,too sweet to be forgotten,as wat jinni said:treasure d memories,because its too precious,keep it carefully in our heart

d word “carefulli” here is so specific,if u don nurture it, it wil die..

5 years in st mary sumhow have built up my character bit by bit, d sweet n sour, i admire miss sim,jinni, munli, esther, weijean,weivien n siew huai d most..its you guys dat taught me wat is meant by commitment,patience,determination,forgiveness n hapi-go-lucky..last time oways find xcuses 2 go bac skul, wat to certify certs,can certify up to n times,to meet puan lim,to haha,i don rmbr wat lame xcuses i hav told my mum,she juz accepted,but of coz,there r nt so muc cert to certify..simply wanna go bac to meet my small cockroach,frenz n my luilui..wat..2become temporary teacher is juz an excuses,after all juz wanna go bac 2 skul everyday..kekex! cunning me..don not let my mum noe it!

cum to sam tet,i bilif dats wil b another great lesson to be learnt here

but siew teng wanna protest! why gals cannot shout n cheer in d claz or during assembly like no one else,y gals cannot talk 2 a guy like brothers n sisters..y muz v tuck in our shirts(but dis mmg applied to every student, =b), y everyone is so reserved here..dis little gal has so many questions to ask,but her frenz told her don ask so many questions..

nex mission to b done in claz:siew teng wanna shift her sitting position,i dun wanna get stucked at d corner,cnt read d veri minute words frm the board especiali miss chee n mr choong words..so “xiao xiao li”..^^ and tong tong head is too big 4 me..haha,4give me..but chun yee is sitting in frt n rou wei at d back,yoon teng n mei soon n laoshu + yee wen near 2 me as wel..lol,crack jokes in claz. rocks d whole skul!.but y jia min has no response evytime wen i m telling jokes(._”)

club thingy: combine prs n BnK! i wanna brush up my BM n chinese,ah gor said my chinese nt so gud,,ooossshhhh…shui shuo de!n oso do wel in bowling practise..superbowler of me,kekekeekx!!!VAD7-nvr ponteng anymor..

nex term exams: i don wanna slack anymor,yah,n oso nt 2 4get 2 answer maths quest againr,it carried 10 marks 4 dat particular question,resentful nw..wuwuwuwu=’(..jiayou jia you jia you,conquer temptation,don online evyday,don sleep in claz n tuition n oso in skul library,its so ugly!n don run up n down in skul anymor… ahahahhah..seniors said 5 hours of revision per day..yeah!! strive 4 it now..sinmun,big hau,rouwei,ah gor,loon,v gambateh yah..ah gor said he wanna get whole form no 3…(big hau said he were 2 get no2) grinning (=^^=)

to kwan:nevermind of d perspectives others hav instilled on u..d words r against u?? ..yah siew teng noes..but it strengthen n help u to grow..don b so vulnerable,as u go along,dos things r juz too trivial for u…stay strong n hapi,k! …y last monday wen talking 2 me den u sud walked away..i tot u r to continue..???